Things move on

So while I am depressed and upset that i didn't get that place, I am thankful that I have the ability and the resources to get myself out of tent city someday and have a real place to live. My education and job skill set is far superior than most of the residence of tent city. I sometimes feel for them, as we sit around the table at night. I mean, the worse thing that is holding me back is my eviction, so I'm glad there's no felonies, sorry kevin, against me or that I have a job that is paying me pretty well, and has let me turn a part time job, into a full time one, even got 7.6 hour OT last week, so for now things are ok. I am tired of being wet. I can deal with being cold, the wind, just not being wet, with no way to dry out and get warm. It suck when everythimg gets damp, not really wet, but far from dry. There's a chill you just can't shake. I miss my dog BooDah alot, and hopefully he'll get to move up soon, cause I need him here, cause its too depressing a winter to be without him, come on now, he is a service dog.
Sorry to disappoint everyone with such a mild rant on Saturday. I just didn't have the energy to properly vent my anger, and now the moments passed. I've moved on, and hopefully this new place I'm calling on today will turn out.

Just can't win

Thought I had a place, went and looked at it, talked with the owner, told him i was very serious about it, and then he went and rented it out anyways, since the three times I called friday he didn't answer. I left two long messages. Oh, It was to good to be true. So now Iput the money back into savings and keep looking. Had my hopes crushed again!!!!

Just another day

So I actually have a day off today and hate it almost. I tried to sleep in this morning, but had to pee so bad by 7:30am that I just couldn't lay there anymore. And once I was up, well, I wished I wasn't. I had to do my security shift for the week here at Nickelsville, so I had to stick around all morning til 12 noon to do my three hour shift. Then Left to the library downtown and back to on line searching for housing! Got some responses and phone calls yesterday, late so we'll see how things go.

Still I press on

So I have picked up a dishwashing/closing shift at specialties this saturday, which is better than sitting in the camp with nothing to do, I guess. And since I have no money or my dog and no real social life as to speak of yet, I guess its good that i just keep myself busy and keep making as much money as possible, for my own place that my dog Boodah will finally join me at!!! I can't believe how fast time has actually gone by. I've been back in Seattle now, with a job for 46 days, and have been homeless for 14 days this saturday. My bosss at work pulled me aside to day after work and was very conserned that I was ok, was I doing well, was I eating, did I have money, she even offered to buy my next bus pass and I haven't paid her for the first one yet. Mary's even willing to be a reference for me, both professional and personal. And I try to joke about my situation as much as possible at work, trying to not take anything to serious and find the bright side every day. Its hard and exhausting!! I really wish my dog was here with me!!! I try and keep up a front, and by all outward appearences I seem ok, but inside I am miserable and depressed. I have really started to ask my self why am I here in Seattle. I can work anywhere, and since I've thought about going back to school, I can do that anywhere too. I don't really have anything major going for me, a small social safety net, but not really. Maybe things will get better, but i have seriously set myself a deadline for a decision, that when the camp gets ready to move on November 14th, what are my plans?? To stay, find housing and get my dog up here, or do I take all that housing money, rent a truck and move it all back to...? Why Idaho??? I really could move anywhere, right, but then I'd be in the same situation, needing housing and a job, but now with no money. So I kinda have to think on this. I mean Idaho is ok, and what i hate about it isn't that bad, but it feels too much like I failed and am returning home, instead of moving home after a good career here in Seattle. Maybe I'll stay here until Karen and Terry move with the girls, and tag along, who knows. It hurts my mind thinking of all these things.

Almost another week

So as I approach the end of my second work week while being residentially challanged, I am broke, but refuse to touch my savings account, so I'll suffer, and Idaho didn't cancel my food stamps, so guess who's saying fed this month. I've been replying to ads on craigslist for apartments around town, but most either have income restriction, ie you can't make this much or the more popular, you must make 2.5 times the rent in income. So on a $600.00 place, I'd need to make $1500 a month, which if that is what i was making a month, I wouldn't need a $600.00 a month place, right??? I don't know, and until I save up enough cash to even pay first and a deposit, both damage and pet, I can't really get my hopes to high. There are a couple good places right now that are giving free rent and $99 first months, or waive deposit for renters, so we'll see. both are at opposite ends of the city. one, the Park Hill Apartments, are located in Skyway, which is even furtheer south than southpark, but more central and a straight bus ride into town. The other is located north of the u-district, way north, like 100 blocks, but is on the bus line to the U of W, so in might not be bad, plus just today I got a line on another place, so we'll see. I know it sounds funny but I do have alot of expences even being homeless, and its hard to save up enough cash this fast. But I gotta get my dog up here, hopefully before the holidays.

So I continue looking for Housing

I haven't given up completely, seeing as how I have a month til Karen can bring my dog up, if I have a place, so maybe something will come up, sooner the better. I found a couple places that I am contacting right now, each is far from work, but were 2 bedroom units for like 850-900. Am looking now for one bedroom units in those same buildings, and with any luck, might finally have a place of my own by thanksgiving. Then comes the joy of moving everything from the katrina disaster that is my storage unit to my new place, and then going through each bag and box one at a time to seperate the junk from useable stuff, seperate out all the broken stuff, and finally seperate my stuff from Nadine's, rebox it and have her come get it, or something like that. But I gotta do something and fast cause I miss my dog so much and just want him up here with me before the holidays if at all possible. I'm on the internet every day now, so hopefully it will work out.

Housing depression

So I spent all weekend looking for housing only to slowly realize that my eviction from last December will unqualify me from almost every apartment building and managment company for the next two years. Sad is that i finally have a good job, and can easily afford to pat my own rent. So I am now back to looking at shared housing situations. My friend Mike gets $800.00 a month from the Government each month, and he needs a place too, but his record and credit isn't better than mine. It does drive me nuts, though i completely understand how many landlords and rental agencies get burned, hell- I still owe Pinnacle Property Investments from my stay and eviction from the OK Hotel. But I need my own place and I need my dog up here soon. I'm going crazy without him.